Fields of Gold – Sting

29 10 2009

You’ll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You’ll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in the fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
We’ll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in the fields of gold

See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I’ve broken
But I swear in the days still left
We’ll walk in the fields of gold
We’ll walk in the fields of gold

Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
You’ll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold





When We Dance – Sting

29 10 2009

If he loved you
Like I love you
I would walk away in shame
I’d move town
I’d change my name

When he watches you
When he counts to buy your soul
On your hand his golden rings
Like he owns a bird that sings

When we dance, angels will run and hide their wings

The priest has said my soul’s salvation
Is in the balance of the angels
And underneath the wheels of passion
I keep the faith in my fashion
When we dance, angels will run and hide their wings

I’m still in love with you
[I’m gonna find a place to live
Give you all I’ve got to give]
When we dance, angels will run and hide their wings
When we dance, angels will run and hide their wings

If I could break down these walls
And shout my name at heaven’s gate
I’d take these hands
And I’d destroy the dark machineries of fate
Cathedrals are broken
Heaven’s no longer above
And hellfire’s a promise away
I’d still be saying
I’m still in love

He won’t love you
Like I love you
He won’t care for you this way
He’ll mistreat you if you stay

Come and live with me
We’ll have children of our own
I would love you more than life
If you’ll come and be my wife
When we dance, angels will run and hide their wings
When we dance, angels will run and hide their wings
When we dance, angels will run and hide their wings
When we dance, angels will run and hide their wings

I’m gonna love you more than life
If you will only be my wife
I’m gonna love you more than life
If you will only be my wife
I’m gonna love you night and day
I’m gonna try in every way

(I had a dream last night
I dreamt you were by my side
Walking with me baby
My heart was filled with pride
I had a dream last night)





Shoot me! Shoot me!

16 10 2009

I realized that I chose a romance novel over time spent with MyZee. Then again, please, I just don’t appreciate last minute plans. You don’t call me at 6.30pm and ask me to accompany me you to your female friend’s wedding solemnization. He always have that habit. Well, sorry dude, that is my pet peeve.

Well, I’m sure he has his reasons. Sigh. Why now? He even asked me, Why do I sound shocked? Well, it’s been a while since I heard from him. Anyways, I need to be home. And I don’t look that presentable. Goes to show that I need to revamp my wardrobe. Or rather my dressing style. I’m working on it actually. I don’t have to wait till the new year to start dressing up.

Haiz. Am I thinking too much? I mean no I’m not, just letting things out. There’s no denying that you have certain reactions and emotions towards guys who matter to you. Even though I want to be that feisty femme fatale of not letting these boys affect me. But I know all that they expect from me is to be just cool. The problem is I just can’t! Grr. Being cool is like being just a friend and I don’t want to be just a friend.

“So once in my life, let me get what I want.”





Letting it out finally

15 10 2009

Guess I couldn’t hold it any longer. Maybe Nicholas can say something about this.

So I was all concern about him being stress at work. This is 2 days after our supposed date. Or meeting. Whatever. We continued, informing each other about our interviews.

Then at night, I decided to be frank. I’m tired of being nice and understanding when the actual fact is that I was being stood up. I mean, so much for missing me, when you don’t even want to meet me.

Nobody can accept it when someone couldn’t even send a simple sms telling me that he or she couldn’t make it. Come on, you don’t need to be taught. I think if you’re a considerate person, no matter how busy or sick you are, you should tell the other person that you couldn’t make it. I know that there can be situations that you can’t avoid, those are truly emergencies. But what he did is just bullshit.

I can understand his reasons. In fact, I don’t even have to know. But I just don’t understand why he didn’t tell me, and why he didn’t reply to my sms when I asked him where to meet. So I just let the matter be, watch 500 Days of Summer alone. And I asked him at night. He just said he’s stress over work. And I asked him again 2 nights later. I told him I couldn’t understand why he didn’t apologise and tell me. He said apart from stress, he has something to confess but was afraid to tell me. And he said he didn’t understand why he didn’t tell me either. Bullshit.

Lame replies, but come to think of it, he could have lied if he wanted to. I’m disappointed rather than mad, and this made me weak. I mean, I still adore him despite this, but at the same time, I can’t give in too easily.

And I’ve gotten this shit before from someone else, I’m beginning to wonder how normal is this. If I can lax about this. But I don’t like it. And I hate it when people forget their appointments.





(500) Days of Summer

11 10 2009

I caught it alone. Actually I’ve read the spoilers before and the ending is not worth watching with someone you adore. But it IS the not-your-ordinary love story you must watch.

It made me cry too. But I can watch it again if someone asked me to. There are some funny scenes that you’ll remember for a long time, like the Ikea scene and the morning-after-top-of-the-world dance. It’s a story all of us can relate to. Whether you’re the guy or the girl, at any point of time, you went along dating someone, having a good time, hoping he/she would fall in love with you. You thought that this person is the ONE for you, but he/she found the ONE in somebody else. And those 500 days were just memories.

I guess such a storyline is a selling point going by the ratings and it’s performance at the box office. Throw in 2 adorable leads (even I myself adored Zooey Duschanel, not just Joseph Gordon Lewitt) and you have a winner.

And I just love the music they put into the movie! I’ll definitely get the soundtrack for sure. It’s classic Brit Pop at its best, songs that tells stories of love that you believed in. Infectious and feel good tunes.

In all, I gave it a thumbs up! It’s cool, it’s bittersweet, it’s poignant. Watch it!





Funny how things turned out. Or didn’t.

11 10 2009

Still no reply.
And I’m still at work.
And I’m thinking, if he did book the tickets and I couldn’t make it in time and that would suck right?
But it still sucks because he didn’t reply.
And I don’t even want to call him.
Maybe I just don’t want anything at all.

Because I know. I can recount whatever has happened and it’ll all boils down to the problem we both have. And we both know that we want different things. We have different expectations of each other.

Funny how things turned out. Of course, because it was meant to be as such. Stop all your wishful thinking. Stop hoping that his words are true. Stop tripping.

Deep inside, I hope he stood me up instead of falling sick. I rather know that he’s ignoring me or he has forgotten about today than being unwell.





Sunday

11 10 2009

Heh… Clever. I can’t think of a title for my post. But the fact is I’m at work. Not that I mind because… Because. ­čÖé

Yesterday was an interesting episode of Tangisan Bulan Madu. I’ve spoilt myself 2 weeks ago by reading the synopsis so I decided to tell my mom about it.

Before that we were out visiting. We visited our 5th floor neighbour and my mom’s aunt. You know what’s in common between the both of them? They said to my mom, ‘Tak lama lagi nak dapat menantulah’. Which means, ‘You’re gonna get a son in law soon’. Don’t I wish! But I don’t even have a potential. I mean, the ones that I’m hoping are drifting far away and they aren’t within my grasp. Even B… Well… I don’t think I can hope much anymore…

On with happier things. Friday night was so awesome! Why? Because I was reunited with my primary school mates! A list of who’s who – Muly, Nora, Zailah, Zulina, Yuhanies, Noraini, Effendi, Had and Yuzaimi. There were those who couldn’t make it because of work.┬áThere could have been a lot more. We showed each other our class photos, and naming who’s who in those photos, laughing at our own faces. Recalling stories of so and so. And the things we did back then. It was a merry night for all of us, drowning Starbucks Fullerton with our laughter.┬áMaybe I should have┬ámy own Blast from the Past entries to tell you what I can remember from way back then.

By the way he hasn’t replied my sms yet. Like I said, I don’t think I can hope much anymore.